Not Me Not I

You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me

If you think love is blind?
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, and I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I

The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me

All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I

If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprise, and I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I,
Not I
No not me, not I

Lost Without You

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes (you might say)
A little righteous and too proud
I just wanna find a way to compromise
Cause I believe we can work things out


I thought that I had all the answers
never givin in
but baby since you've gone
I admit I was wrong



All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
and we ended with goodbye
dunno what I'd do
im lost without you


I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you


How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
baby I'm so lonely all the time
everywhere I go I get so confused
your the only thing thats on my mind


Oh my bed's so cold at night
an I miss you more each day
only you can make it right
no I'm not too proud to say


All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
and we ended with goodbye
dunno what I'd do
I'm lost without you


I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you


If I could only hold you now
make the pain just go away
can't stop the tears from running down my face


All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
an we ended with goodbye
dunno what I'd do
I'm lost without you


I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
an all I know is
I'm lost without your love
I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is
I'm lost without you

I'M LOST WITHOUT YOU!! (Delta Goodrem)

TI&K 7 April 2010

seharusnya ini di postingin tugas beberapa minggu lalu, kurang lebih dua minggu yang lalu deh..
soalnya ini materi di pelajarin tanggal 7 April 2010 di sekolah..
tapi dari pada gak sama sekali mending sekarang hehe..
oke kita mulai aja ya..
pada tanggal 7 April 2010 kita belajar bikin grafik di excel gitu..
kita di kasi data model gini nih















nah dari data tersebut kita harus bikin grafik macam ini




















cara bikin grafiknya gampang aja kok..
kalo datanya udah di ketik kaya gambar pertama tadi tinggal di block aja trus klik Insert-Chart trus tinggal pilih grafik yang di suka dan otak atik settingnya aja deh sesuai selera mata.. hehe gampang kok..

udah sih gitu aja waktu itu, kebetulan pas tanggal 7 April itu sekolah sempet mati lampu jadi belajar atau bisa di bilang praktek TI&K nya juga cuma bentar..
okelah segitu dulu aja ya TI&K kali ini..
:-)

Broken Strings

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Tersnyum dan Ikhlas

hilang rasa dan harap
ketika kenyataan terungkap
hampa dan gelap ruang fikiran
hembusan nafas pendek membawaku pada :

senyum, tandaku merasa senang kau jujur
tawa , tandaku merasa bodoh
teriak , caraku melepas penat
air mata , caraku mengucapkan maaf dan terima kasih padamu..

saat kau lingkarkan tanganmu dibahuku
saat kau melihatku
saat kau berbicara padaku
seakan membawaku keluar dari ketakutanku

saat hujan lelah turun
awan indah terlihat
kau katakan ingin melihat pelangi
aku diam...berfikir untuk mencari pelangimu

setiap pergi dan menemukan pelangi
sebisa mungkin ku ambil gambarnya
setelah terkumpul ku berikan padamu
aku pun ingin ikut menghiasi hatimu dengan pelangiku

tapi....
ketika semua terkumpul
hatimu telah memilih..
mengubah pelangiku abu-abu

aku...
hanya terduduk sepi
disudut ruang menatap perih dirimu
mulut tersenyum
hati menangis
mata merapuh
jiwa terkoyak
teriakan penat karna panah cinta
berlari dan kembali
menjauhkan amarah
menutup mata..
tersenyum..
dan berkata... "aku ikhlas"


Remarquable.Indah Sari Ratu. April 14th 2010




















dedicated for AM

pengakuan yang luar biasa

mungkin kedengerannya lebay tapi itu lah kenyataannya..
tertawa adalah respon pertama yang gw dapat setelah melihat comment dari orang yang lagi gw suka di salah satu status temen gw di fb...
setelah gw tertawa ternyata gw langsung teriak dan gw langsung nangis..
sebuah pangakuan yang luar biasa dari orang itu..
dia berani membeberkan didepan teman-temannya tanpa rasa malu..
gw ngerasa lega karna dia mau jujur atas kesalahannya..
walaupun gw ngerasa sakit dengan keadaan tersebut..
tapi gw cukup seneng dengan keberaniannya..
jujur gw masih suka bahkan mungkin gw masi sayang sama dia
tapi dia udah nentuin pilihannya sama orang lain..
yang menrurut gw lebih pantas untuk ngedapetin dia..
gw sayang sama dia tapi gw ngerasa lebih baik gw jadi temen dia..
karna dengan begitu mungkin gw bisa tetep deket sama dia..
iya gak sih?
kalo pun gak..
gw juga sangat bersyukur banget udah bisa ngenal dia walaupun dalam waktu yang cukup singkat..
seperti yang pernah gw bilang..

"kehilangan bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah buat gw tapi semua itu bisa gw terima asalkan ada kejujuran atas segalanya"

gw juga udah message orangnya dan udah gw ungkapin semua yang gw rasa sama dia
dia pun terima walaupun dia juga ngerasa kalo gw itu telat jujurnya..
hahaha...
dia juga minta maaf sama perbuatannya..
gitu juga sebaliknya gw..
dan intinya kita saling memaafkan..

kita semua tau apa yang udah terjadi gak akan bisa kembali lagi..
tapi ada satu hal yang masi bisa kita lakukan..
yaitu memperbaikinya dengan ketulusan, keikhlasan,dan keberanian serta selalu saling memaafkan dalam hati kita..


jujur gw kurang ngerti sama kata" yang gw tulis barusan semua itu muncul spontan di otak dan hati gw..
hahaha...


.tertawa ,,tanda aku merasa bodoh
.senyum ,,tanda aku senang melihat kejujuranmu
.teriak ,,caraku melepas penatku
.menangis,,tanda aku mengucapkan maaf dan terima kasih padamu......AM

kalo lo baca posting gw kali ini gw mau lo janji sama gw lo jangan nyakitin perasaan cewe yang udah jadi pilihan lo..
karna dia temen gw juga..
dan gw akan sangat marah kalo ngeliat lo nyakitin dia..
dan lo juga harus janji untuk nonjok atau tabok gw kalo lo ngeliat gw sedih..karna gw udah janji sama lo kalo gw gak akan sedih lagi ..kan kalo lo nonjok gw gw jadi takut untuk sedih lagi..hehe

oke for the first and the last,,
gw cuma mau bilang....
Je Suis Amoureux De Toi (Mon Ami)..
kalo di inggrisin
I Love You (My Friend)
hehe

thanks for everything MADUUUUU!!!!
:-)